Sentiment of mine

Last night, I am watching comedy drama with me beloved family. We enjoyed it very much. We laughed loudly, it has been long time we didn’t watch drama together. Suddenly, the phone rang. We eldest brother picked up the phone. He spoke with a very serious tone with the caller. My heart was become cold at that moment, I kept thinking what happen. They all do have the same feeling. I turned off the sound and waiting for my brother to end the phone call.

After awhile, he put down the phone and my mum asked him “Who called? And what happen?” then my brother answered “4th uncle called. He said Amei (something like 公公 in kayan’s language) had passed away just now. ” He is my grandma’s youngest brother. We all felt shock. My tears kept turned in my eyes. He seems very strong when my parents visited him on Sunday. He spoke energetic, kidding with them, ate oranges. He was a very strong person. He never sick before. This is the first time he stayed in hospital, I think. =’(

I stopped watching movie, and I went to the toilet and cried silently. Why things can change suddenly without any inform, any notify? We even not prepared for it. It’s just comes as it like. My dad called his son. He said his father passed away very peaceful, with no pain. He said, one of her daughter just made a phone call to asked her dad take care of himself and she will visit him while the holidays during the coming March. However, he didn’t wait for that day. R.I.P =’(

Besides that, my family plan not to go traveling during this year as we will have a trip during the end of year every year so that we can celebrate Christmas day with him this year. Who know, we have no more chance. =’( There is many feeling in my heart now. I can’t express them in words.

Now I keep reminding myself, appreciate and thank for what I have today because it might be not yours on the next minute or the next day. We can’t catch the time passed but we can look forward. Life is looking forward. I am happy to have my beloved grandparents, my much-loved parents, my favorite brothers and also dearly loved friends and also strangers I will meet in the future. I will always love them even we are separated by distance. I will always keep them inside my heart, even I can’t remember their faces until the last breath in my life.

I love you, my grandparents.

I love you, my parents.

I love you, my brothers.

I love you, my friends.

I love you, future strangers.

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p/s: Try to treasure what we have in our life so that we’ll not be regret when we lost them, because they are inside our heart ever and forever.